Problems

There are lots of problems overwhelming me now. One thing, I'm afraid of doing something. I haven't prepare my heart yet for any outcomes. Another, I don't know whether I had made a correct decision or not. I feel that it is different now. Evil is testing on my faithfulness. There is nothing I can do other than keep praying.

Nothing to tell

I'm getting much lazy to update this blog. Sometimes I just don't have the mood to type anything. Even if I update, it will not be exactly what I'm thinking.

I need to take time to calm myself down and keep praying. I don't know whether I'm prepared to accept and overcome all that. I need courage!

Depression

Every problems is magnified today. All the worries and fears come into my mind all out of sudden. What happens to me? I know it is not hormone imbalance. I could control them all well all the time. I'm freak out. What should I do? I feel lost. I saw how weak I am today.

Shopping

Four of us had been planning for today since last week we were informed that the only class today is cancelled. We are shopping for new year in KL! Our legs are totally aching after walking for the whole day and we are busy massaging them in our hotel room now. Shopping is so tiring. Once in a blue moon is ok as I don't have extra money to spare. haha...

Death

It is really shocked while I read the news about the death of the sister of a childhood friend of mine on facebook. I understand that she was in coma for nine days after the car accident with a drunken driver. This friend and his family are my neighbour too. Since we are living in kampung area, we are quite close with our neighbours. Recalling my childhood, I used to play with him and his siblings. What left now is only memory as time goes by. May you rest in peace, my friend.

Life is so fragile. I'm not afraid of death. I know where will I go after I died. I just worry that I have not done the jobs God assigned to me when the day comes. What about my family? What about my future? Live life to the fullest for God now.

Teacher?

I wonder what kind of teacher will I be in the future? I'm sure that I will not repeat the donkey work my teachers did and the halfhearted behaviour they used to be. I want to be an educator, not only a teacher who left their students to be what they like to be. At least this is what I've learned throughout my 3 semester in UPSI now. I'll do my best!

THE END

Done my Taekwon-do test today and no Taekwon-do anymore! Hooray! I think I did my test badly but never mind, it is over. There will be a post-mortem on 24th. Why it has to be 24th? Still having class on 24th, how hectic! Well, this is week 13 already. My semester 1 of year 2 is going to end soon. How time flies!