Problems

There are lots of problems overwhelming me now. One thing, I'm afraid of doing something. I haven't prepare my heart yet for any outcomes. Another, I don't know whether I had made a correct decision or not. I feel that it is different now. Evil is testing on my faithfulness. There is nothing I can do other than keep praying.

Nothing to tell

I'm getting much lazy to update this blog. Sometimes I just don't have the mood to type anything. Even if I update, it will not be exactly what I'm thinking.

I need to take time to calm myself down and keep praying. I don't know whether I'm prepared to accept and overcome all that. I need courage!

Depression

Every problems is magnified today. All the worries and fears come into my mind all out of sudden. What happens to me? I know it is not hormone imbalance. I could control them all well all the time. I'm freak out. What should I do? I feel lost. I saw how weak I am today.

Shopping

Four of us had been planning for today since last week we were informed that the only class today is cancelled. We are shopping for new year in KL! Our legs are totally aching after walking for the whole day and we are busy massaging them in our hotel room now. Shopping is so tiring. Once in a blue moon is ok as I don't have extra money to spare. haha...

Death

It is really shocked while I read the news about the death of the sister of a childhood friend of mine on facebook. I understand that she was in coma for nine days after the car accident with a drunken driver. This friend and his family are my neighbour too. Since we are living in kampung area, we are quite close with our neighbours. Recalling my childhood, I used to play with him and his siblings. What left now is only memory as time goes by. May you rest in peace, my friend.

Life is so fragile. I'm not afraid of death. I know where will I go after I died. I just worry that I have not done the jobs God assigned to me when the day comes. What about my family? What about my future? Live life to the fullest for God now.

Teacher?

I wonder what kind of teacher will I be in the future? I'm sure that I will not repeat the donkey work my teachers did and the halfhearted behaviour they used to be. I want to be an educator, not only a teacher who left their students to be what they like to be. At least this is what I've learned throughout my 3 semester in UPSI now. I'll do my best!

THE END

Done my Taekwon-do test today and no Taekwon-do anymore! Hooray! I think I did my test badly but never mind, it is over. There will be a post-mortem on 24th. Why it has to be 24th? Still having class on 24th, how hectic! Well, this is week 13 already. My semester 1 of year 2 is going to end soon. How time flies!

Hot!

Taekwon-do practice at the field, under the sun, again! It is so so so hot! We couldn't escape as we will have our pattern and sparring test tomorrow morning. This time I'm clever. I apply sunblock as to prevent suntan like last time. Gosh, I still can't remember all the steps yet! Will I pass the test? =(

The last presentation

SLA presentation is finally done! We were kind of screw it up because what we presented didn't fulfill the requirement of our lecturer. What we gonna do is to make everything right in our presentation report. Okay...Hopefully this will be our very last assignment!

Laundry

Since I was so free in the morning, I decided to clean and tidy up my room. I even washed my bed cover and blanket as it is sunny. Suitable to do heavy laundry I thought. Who knows? It turned to be cloudy and seemed going to rain in a few minutes. My housemate shouted me from downstairs, asking me to collect my half-dried blanket and bed cover. Then I had to iron-dry my blanket because it is the only blanket I have here. I don't want to catch a cold tonight. LOL

Good day, good mood

It is quite a relaxing day today. I submitted my last individual assignment in the only 1 hour class, then I'm free for the rest of the day! There is only 1 presentation and report left! I'm so excited! My most busy and harsh time is going to end soon! After this I can start my revision for the final examination! Hooray!

By the way, Christmas is coming! ^^

In all these things we are more than conquerors through him who love us. (Romans 8:37)

God makes a way

I experienced the grace of God again today. I'd been praying for an annoying problem for a few days. HE listens to my prayer and HE really makes a way for me. I can feel that HE is leading me out although the problem is not completely solved yet. Thank You almighty God!

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. (Psalms 23:1)

Endeavor and Affection

Today is a sleepy day. I only have time for my assignment after cell group just now at about 9pm. I'm trying to open my eyes and force myself to read some text on the LCD. The more I struggled, the more I feel sleepy. How tired! I have no idea yet of how to crap on my CAD 1500 words individual assignment. What issue is in the two plays? Gender? How to elaborate? Gosh! Burning the midnight oil...

20 more days to go and it will be my big day! Eventually! I can't express how excited I am! The affection in my heart is so strong!

Taste and see that the LORD is good: blessed is the man who takes refuge in him. Psalms 34:8

Exhausted

I'm exhausted, in both mentally and physically. I'm lack of sleep and rest but still needed to stretch my tired body vigorously just now during the Taekwon-do II practice. I have too much of things to do this weekend. Really too much but too little time... I'm tired, really tired...

Phew!

Well, SLA class is cancelled again today! Every coursemate of mine were rejoicing! We have more time to prepare our presentation!

I kind of can't believe myself could complete 2 assignments today. Hooray! Feel a little bit relieved, but I still need to continue with the other assignments. It had been a long time I didn't feel motivated as today. It is good. Thank you my friend for giving me support! I'll keep fighting! This semester is gonna end very soon!

Tension from presentation

I'm getting more stressed. It's okay, hopefully all works will be done by the end of next week.

How am I going to pass the SLA presentation tomorrow? I pray to God, hoping that it will run smoothly, or at least the lecturer won't criticize and humiliate us with her knowledge. I'm still learning. If I'm wrong, please point it out for me kindly. I don't want to hate this course.